IT'S A .......

 

 

  BOY!!!!!

It's amazing the thoughts that go through a mother's mind.  I'm sure many moms have the same feelings and thoughts that I do.  And although I'm a "talker," many of these thoughts to come have never been shared.  Not even with Jason.  On Oct. 16th we had our ultrasound.  This was to be my 3rd and final time having an ultrasound and each time I go in nervous.  Nervous because, although I'm not a worrier by nature, I worry about my babies.  I worry the whole time I'm pregnant.  I worry that I am eating right, that I am drinking enough water, did I feel the baby kick enough today, am I being healthy, will my child be healthy, will my baby be anything less than perfect.  Although I know the odds are in my favor, it's still something I worry about until I am holding that little being in my arms.  And then a whole different worry starts.  

The ultrasound helps, but it doesn't take the worry away.  This time the worry continues for a few more weeks when I will have another ultrasound.  During my ultrasound the baby wasn't be very cooperative and they would like to get better pictures of the heart.  Although, my doctor assured me that everything is fine and I keep telling myself, "if it was serious, they would want you to come back sooner!" the worry still invades me thoughts.  Next month when I return, I know I will be reassured that our little baby is healthy and growing, but until then, my mind might play tricks on me.  Perhaps, these tricks come about because I see so many people that suffer, have dealt with sadness, loss and life changing events.  I myself, have not.  I question...."how can I be so blessed?" "Why not me?"  Again, I know everything will be fine and I find comfort in this....So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you;  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.  Isaiah 41:10

The best part of that day, was our surprise!  We found out we are having a boy!  We are so excited, although, we really didn't care one way or another.  During our ultrasound we asked the technician to write it down and we did not look at the screen while she found out.  On our way home from Fargo, we dropped off the gender information, the box to hold the balloons and pink and blue balloons at my friend, Kara's.  She checked the information, filled the balloons and filled the box.  She came to our house where we were ready to find out.  It was so fun to open up the box and see that our little baby is a boy.  With Hayden and Clara it was a surprise and I LOVED not knowing, but this was equally as fun.  I am so anxious to meet him to see who he looks like to examine every inch of him and to hold him in my arms.  As this will be our last baby, I am trying to savior every moment, especially the kicks.  At almost 23 weeks we don't have much more time before he makes his arrival.  We will be so excited to share with the world our little boy! 

Second Half of Summer

 Here we go with another long post recapping our lives.  So much has happened since the last time I posted. 

July
* We were able to watch some of Jason's cousin's baseball season.  They had their tournaments in Lisbon, so we went to a few.  They ended up making it to state.
* We announced the we will be having a baby in February!  The kids seem to be excited.  I am feeling better now, but went through a stretch of nausea and vomiting.  Glad that is over.  Now just trying to get as much sleep as possible.

August
* Clara got her first haircut!  Didn't cut much off, just a little bit to even out the back.  She is actually pretty good about letting me put "pretties" and "ponies" in her hair.
* Hayden went to VBS for a few days.  I was able to help in his group and we had lots of fun.
* I went to California with my mom and our friends Jeanne and Rachael.  We went for my friend Sarala's wedding.  We flew into San Francisco and got there rather early, so we were able to walk around the pier and eat at a really good restaurant for lunch.  We then made our way over the Golden Gate Bridge to head north to our hotel.  We stayed in Santa Rosa and we were able to a few wineries each day along with the wedding festivities.  The whole trip was lots of fun even though I was not able to drink the wonderful wine.  I've had a few bottles shipped home so that I can enjoy them at a later date.  It was very interesting attending my first Hindu wedding and so great to see my friend Sarala. She was a stunning bride and it was so much fun to meet her husband.
* While I was gone Clara turned 2.  So we celebrated the following week.  She had a Minnie Mouse birthday and had such a great time with her friends.  We are so blessed by wonderful family friends.  She ate so many cake pops that we lost count.  But it was her special day.

September
* We were able to enjoy one last long weekend at the lake.  With my family and we had some pretty good weather.
* Hayden started taking Tae Kwon Do lessons.  Once a week he goes and he has really been enjoying it.  It is amazing what they learn.  I'm very impressed with the academy that puts it on.  They stress discipline and respect and also that it is used for self defense only.  I hope this is something that he enjoys for many years.
* Hayden also started his 3rd year of preschool.  He is going to the same teacher as in the past and he really loves going and being with his friends.  Can't believe next year I will have a kindergartener!
* Clara and I have started going to Mops again.  She again is not cooperating with being left with the other kids in the childcare center, but maybe someday she will.
* We celebrated a good friend's 40th birthday by getting dressed up for prom.  We had a blast getting ready and going to prom.
* We met our new nephew/cousin Carver at the farm.  Jason's brother and sister-in-law had a little boy at the end of August and we were so excited to meet him.  He is so cute and we can't wait to see him again.  Both of the kids loved holding him, especially Clara.

Not much new has happened this month but we are looking forward to many things in the weeks and months to come.  Next month I go for my 20 week ultrasound and we have decided to find out if we are having a boy or girl this time.  We didn't with the other 2 and since we already have one of each we decided to try it that way.  We will be excited to share the news.  We just pray for a healthy baby no matter what.